Most moments I rejoice in my suffering and yet some moments I want it all over with. I know God still has me in His more than capable hand, even when everything in me can't feel it. I struggle with the feeling things won't change or at least soon enough. Tears fell today as I once again recognized I don't have the capabilities I once had. Not that I am angry for what I have lost, just saddened at times I am not the mother or wife I would love to be. I have learned so much the last year and one thing I know is I don't want to keep looking back. I strain to keep the eyes of my heart on Him for that is the only place relief and truth is found. To Him, My Mighty God, be the glory.